Depression was a line in the thirties
for you to walk away
with a cause to desert me
Depression held some stock in the 20's
but blew away like dust and rusted
causing causing problems
because you love to hurt me.

Worry since you can
clear head for problems
god sends things my way
just to dissolve in the solvent
of beer, and piss
pills and things
that take away the strain
of a full days work
passing time with bulls eyes
shots ringing full time
over time and out of line
I said, "I didn't think I was an answer."
You have all the answers,
pretty little dancer
shitty little obvious choice
don't you know you're
another symptom for those boys
who strain
and say,
"I didn't think she was an answer,"
its just a complication
of getting so high
its just an indication
to foreshadow my life

21 years and the bar still saves a seat for me
when I was 9 I hung so high off the ground
counted back from 100 and blacked out after 40
the belt broke and thunder crashed a sound
of my head that fell off and never fell back on

yeah and for a second I could see myself at 21
I waved goodbye and figured,
maybe I'm just nobodys son
maybe I'm just nobody's son
could've would've should've,
ay dad?
maybe I am nobody's son.

Older Guy
shyer than I
over nights
late in the day
breaks empties and replay
saying the same ideas not to say
Loud out loud
its not allowed, the clock
is tracking the times
I weave through the lot
May beat lack luster razors away
shoveling gravel and maybe some paint
maybe some day my arms will be strong
Fire arm,
tired arms
tires and armor off
all the walls
Afar cries a victim
thrown from his car
the cops seem to hover
and twinkle like stars
arm and arm with their brother
we sound the alarm.

When the day
has gone
and the sky sings
its curtain song
I'll have a rose,
so you know
not to hurry in august
a bouqet
luckily bought

Dipped in ink
to turn black roses pink;
blue collars white
day into night
morning rows like a steam ship freight
falling in love
climbing up hate

"I hate the birds,
they sing much too loud,"
the male bird letters
his calls to tell how
a swan can stay strung
with its same lover
and not look at another--
never notice another
"The sun-- my eyes,
blinds even the blinds"
High tide,
in seaside
the motel's dirty
just how I feel
clean and serene
lacking appeal
"Smell the salt,"
smell the street
cleaning lady
stomping her feet
"Miss,"
or hit, or shoot the shit
breath on the back of my neck
kissing your knees,
loving your sheets
anything that covers you
is sacrilege
but anything that touches you
must be magic.

Control
blue brass bones
slowest in show
to recover the whole
Decompose,
I suppose
is the flare and the flow
of how all things go

What a hold
while we knew what to do
who's gonna tell us to stop
What a hold
wildly you shut things down
rearing to go

Introvert
outside your skirt
under your leggings
I found a tag
cut with a knife,
tailor the side
outsides gush
stop love,
inside is fine
inside is lovely
you knew to stop
before I'd even go

said an alibi,
the witness
over wits end
had it up to here and here
and here she said
explodes the demolition
because we don't live there
sold the house
they took the furniture half off

oh we're fucking for keepsake
fucking mistakes
are just great,
clearing the dishrack
empty your plate
fucking for first,
and fucked alone in last place.

he'll take you home
tonight and give that dress a purpose
roughed up quick love
have just one have just one
antidotes that make you worthless

Christmas Eve
hit like a disease
the choir, quiet
harmonies--
Deck the ward
with trees of straws
leaning chores
grinding gnaw
clicking your heels
while I'm clenching my jaw
Pretty in jail
meet an ugly withdrawn

Christmas day
you had nothing to say
so I packed up backed up
walking away
Status 2, or 3, or 4
Energy and light,
as you know
just glow,
glow
sparkle the night
makes a pretty occasion
alone in the light
while the snowstorm is fading

Can we
could you
can you would you
pretend I won't disappear
like a plot in a dream
clotting our knees
and necks to lean
smooth to our cheeks
lips to i.v
i'll try for you
if you remember me

Alone the car
jagged jerking
pissy and swerving
"know how far,"
florida can go
deep in the fleet
of the elderly
ordering drinks
no one delivered to me
and go out.