Christmas Eve
hit like a disease
the choir, quiet
harmonies--
Deck the ward
with trees of straws
leaning chores
grinding gnaw
clicking your heels
while I'm clenching my jaw
Pretty in jail
meet an ugly withdrawn

Christmas day
you had nothing to say
so I packed up backed up
walking away
Status 2, or 3, or 4
Energy and light,
as you know
just glow,
glow
sparkle the night
makes a pretty occasion
alone in the light
while the snowstorm is fading

Can we
could you
can you would you
pretend I won't disappear
like a plot in a dream
clotting our knees
and necks to lean
smooth to our cheeks
lips to i.v
i'll try for you
if you remember me

Alone the car
jagged jerking
pissy and swerving
"know how far,"
florida can go
deep in the fleet
of the elderly
ordering drinks
no one delivered to me
and go out.